I'm so excited to see the comments on the last two posts. They indicate that there are still people reading this! Hooray! All is not yet lost.

Now, where did I leave off? Oh, yes.

Friday was rest day, hence the reason I did not make a post that day. I got a severe talking-to by Tony Thursday evening about how I was overdoing it and I was going to hurt myself. I've been so proud of pushing myself that I have sometimes forgotten that I can in fact injure myself. Friday I still felt sore, so I was quite grateful for my rest day, and I resolved to take it easier on my workouts so I could ramp up without risking injury.

Then I got on the scale Friday morning. I still weigh 155.5 lbs. What. The. Fuck. I worked my ass off all week, and for what? I tried to tell myself that I could be putting on muscle weight, but that didn't help stop me from feeling like I had been defeated. I looked in the mirror. I still looked the same, my pants weren't that much baggier-- it was indeed possible that the entire week of working out had done nothing for me. If that was true, then I needed to be spending more energy working out, not less.

There are other things that may have contributed to this lack of weight loss. Today, Tony and I had a discussion about Lean Cuisine. Apparently, just because it has the word "Lean" in the title, does not imply that the meal is good for you, nor does it mean that it has any magical slimming qualities. I need to eat more real food. Food that I make at home and take with me when I go to work. That means more time in the morning for eating breakfast, more time spent in the evening making my lunches. More salads, food with vegetables and lean meats for protein. I need to focus more on eating well and less on just looking for the easiest option that has a green box to indicate weight loss.

Today, I ate well, just not regularly. I had cereal and grapefruit for breakfast, followed by homemade beef stew for dinner. No lunch. I also did the CF WOD today and LOVED IT. I started by running 1.2 miles for a warm-up, then did a scaled down version of "Barbara". Some of the more difficult workouts have girls' names to define them. They are used as benchmarks. When you post your times, you can compare to the previous time you attempted that particular workout.

Here was "Barbie", the lowest impact version available on the website:
Five rounds, each for time of:
5 Pull-ups
10 Push-ups
15 Sit-ups
20 Squats

I scaled it down further, due to the conversation I had with Tony. I ended up with:
Four rounds, each for time of:
4Pull-ups
8 Push-ups
12 Sit-ups
16 Squats

Three minutes rest in between each round, for all difficulties.

My times:
1:52
1:43
1:33
1:48

Here's the best parts: 1. I did most of the push-ups on my toes, not my knees. I haven't done full push-ups in almost a year. 2. My times beat most of the people on the CF site. Yes, they were less reps, but man I kicked some ass. 3. My squat form is improving dramatically. I don't falter nearly as often as I had.

I'm proud of myself for today's workout. Even if my weight didn't change this week, I'm going to stick with this until I see results. Like any major change in life, there are going to be a lot of ups and downs, and I need to figure out what's going to work. I think I'm going to start putting a little more cardio in my workouts to jump start my metabolism. Also, it will help as a warm-up, instead of just going into the WOD.

You may notice that I didn't mention what I did for a workout on Saturday. That's because I didn't do anything. I won't make excuses. I know I should have and I didn't feel like it. Some things happened on Friday with probate that I've felt pretty shitty about all weekend, but that's not a reason not to go. In fact, I should have gone for that very reason. I'm back in the swing of things now though, and I'm going to stick with it. You can hold me to that.